ootay...Try this one over here since you don't like drugs. Maybe the idea of destructive cleansing products will better suit your mood.
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If you have time to waste, read all of them from the beginning, because there IS a plot to it (cept for random breaks in the middle) and a lot of them will not make sense till ya read from the beginning...
(dont ask me why I bothered trying to make a plot...it was a dumb idea from the start)