Let me try and clear things up here.
When I look in the mirror, I don't see a doosh. It's clear to me that I'm not a doosh.
What I see in the mirror is a fine upstanding example of an asshole. I think about being a doosh, but it takes too long to change over at this point in my life, and what benefit would I get from doing that?
So... well, I guess I should clarify that I'm not always an asshole. Does that help?
It is good to see that someone else here is muddling their way through some aspect of a cc which they have botched one way or another. That's something I've got to stop doing.
Re: "still friends"? Of course we are, but why don't we celebrate after I get home from the hospital. The knife in my back nicked my spine, but I'm gonna' be okay. It'll be expensive hiring two full time personal attendants, but that's the price of friendship! I've got an emergency jar of hand-cream and one operative hand, and that's all that's really required in life. Not really, it's also good to be able to take a dump now and then, but then that's all. Add a piss in there, and eating and all the other stuff. But no, everythings great!