A clown's complaining...

Author: luminous_luciano

Date: September 27, 2005

Happy on the outside... crying on the inside... and upside down all the way around! Why can't I be content like legendary clowns seem to be...? Why... WHY?!? Why... me?!?
You never saw Bozo go through existential angst... you never heard of Slava having any ''issues''... I certainly never heard of Klutzy there having any ''dark thoughts''... Or Patof being moody!
Me... it's a daily struggle to grin! AND IT'S PART OF MY JOB!!! How can I make people smile when myself I CANNOT SMILE... much less laugh!!! Somebody shoot me!!! End my misery!
And it sure is NOT as simple as it seems... lots of superficial folks think a new nose and new hairstyle would cut it - it won't! I know it won't! I tried it all already! Green, blue, orange...
I even tried on a magenta nose! Goes to show how desperate I am for a change... eh? And the hair... HA! You're all just jealous of my rainbowy hairlocks! I always knew that! Petty people!
I guess it is the very nature of the job that gets me so down - make 'em laugh, 24/7... Why can't I get a cushy job like Ronald... huh?!? What has he got that I haven't got?!?