Ah, but I am pathetic. I'm convinced if I could work up some courage, I could be much happier. The whining, as you say, is all of the excuses I give myself.
Yes, and the feeling of hope only makes me feel more pathetic when nothing ever ends up happening.
But yes, life does bite. It gave me a break once, or so I thought. Then the break went off to serve the country.
I think all it did was give you an excuse to make a big deal out of something that would have otherwise amounted to nothing.
