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reposted after proofreading Tonight I watched Memento. Here's a good article about it. http://www.salon.com/2001/06/28/memento_analysis/ Because I needed an article to make sense of it. Here's the movie. The youtube link probably won't work for long. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qNhr0q2p0RQ Memento came out in 2001. Shot for 5 million, it did a little better than the $200 million Pearl Harbor. I never saw Memento until tonight. I've heard a lot about it, some of that from Sammy Jankis, aka Stephen Tobolowsky. Not all of theTobolowsky files are free online anymore, but you can watch Stephan Tobolowsy's birthday party free at hulu, where I stumbled onto it a few years ago. The Tobolowsky files are a podcast,60 some episodes of autobiography by a ubiquitous character actor and author of the Dangerous Animals Club. Anyway. [there's some text missing here from what i wrote. I walked into Pearl Harbor 5 minutes late.] , which apparently was a key scene. Not as key as the first 5 minutes of Flirting, which I also missed. I have an ex who refuses to see movies unless we got there on time. I'm Ok with seeing them backwards, like 3 weeks ago when for $1.50 I saw ender's game, middle, end, then the beginning, because when i got there it was already 20 minutes in. Sorry this is turning out to be a shaggy dog and pony show. I saw Pearl Harbor at the theater. I see about one movie a year on the wide screen. I missed the first 5 minutes. I was late because I was waiting for Adam. No the Adam who later was my roommate and possibly boyfriend. This was Adam from Adam4Adam.com. In 2001 I met a waiter at the Metro. We made a date to go see Pearl Harbor. I'm an old troll and he was a cute twink. Maybe he was just screwing with me and never intended to go on the date, I don't know. We agreed to meet at the varsity and then go to the movie. The Varsity is an old troll bar. It's an old bar with old trolls. I don't know why he chose there. As I pulled into the Varsity parking lot, I saw him pulling away in a car with a couple other guys. I waited for him to come back, but he didn't. Eventually I went and saw the movie by myself. I was five minutes late. It was years before I tried to date again. That night I met him at the metro, I took a picture of him, and I had it saved to my hard drive as stoodup.jpg. Adam and I haven't really spoken since. He either wouldn't remember,or would deny remembering. 3 or 4 years later I had dinner at a Lesbian restaurant with 2 friends. Adam was our waiter,and I showed my friends the picture, stoodup.jpg, and told at least part of the story. I've seen him once or twice since then. 2001 was a difficult time for me. I'd just been fired from my job as a public interest lawyer fighting for free speech on the internet. My housemate was having crazy weekend long Juggalo parties that were keeping me from getting enough sleep. An automated bill collector called at 8 am each morning, usually hanging up. I was very lonely. I was being threatened by the Health and Hospital Corporation that they were going to sue me 50 times. They later did. I'd bought some vacant lots to be community gardens, butterfly habitat and pocket parks, so that made me public enemy number 1 on their list if I didn't mow each lawn once a week. There were 2 other things going wrong at the time, I forget what. Oh, my stock investment was gyrating wildly, I'd be up or down thousands of dollars a day, that was part of the stress. People cope with stress better when they have some kind of social support. I didn't. I am old and ugly and weird. I've never had a boyfriend for more than two weeks (one possible exception) and usually I can't even get a date. It was a small thing in itself, but when Adam stood me up happened right before my nervous breakdown. The 2001 one, I had another in 2004 but that's another story. During the two months I was acutely depressed and nearly catatonic, my stock went bankrupt and I lost my life's savings. Looking back, I know now that I should have gotten an air condition. It was hot that summer, and it was part of why I couldn't sleep and had that "I can't move I'm going to die" feeling. Eventually I got well enough to go get treatment. I went to Health and Hospital, the ones who had caused the crisis in the first place, and they put me on zoloft and zyprexa. It didn't seem to be doing anything except now I could sleep. Then in September one day I was watching the Today show and watched two planes fly into the world trade center and I thought "this stuff must be working because I didn't feel anything." I was aware that it was going to be a big news story. I had no idea it would plunge us into years of madness and war. Tonight I watched Memento. The plot is very complex, interwoven flashbacks, a flawed narrator, some possible surrealism. I wasn't sure I understood it, so I googled and found an article at Salon that explained the plot well. That article compared it, box office successwise, to Pearl Harbor, and suddenly I was thrown back in time and remembered being stood up by Adam and walking into Pearl Harbor 5 minutes late. This is a little too personal a story to put on my main blog so I;m just posting it here, in a space I mostly use for old laundry lists and such. I tend not to do a lot of long form introspective biographic writing, so when I get inspired like this i like to jot down a few quick notes to help me remember. My favorite one was called the Moose story, and it's about the other Adam, but I no longer have a copy. I'm going to stop here. It's midnight. I'm in a hotel room north of chicago, because my car wouldn't start because it was -12 out. I'm going to stop here so I can get some sleep and get up early enough to not miss the free breakfast.
posted Jan 28th, 2014 ( permalink )

arbi says:

http://i.kinja-img.com/gawker-media/image/upload/t_original/19dzw4i2w3nhegif.gif hi joe
posted Jan 29th, 2014 ( permalink )